Today is one of those days. When I am struggling to not feel overwhelmed. After a busy weekend full of activities, we are all tired. But that doesn’t mean we get to slow down. Today we had school and work, then gymnastics and other appointments.
Sometimes I feel like I never leave my van. Drop this kid here, take that kid there. Take them to the store to get supplies due the latest project. Up and down the freeway.
I have a son who has ADHD. Being his mom can be exhausting. Today he to write an essay and he has literally spent 2 hours complaining why he has to do it and how its not going to help him in later in life.
Add to that the stress of being a single mom juggling the finances to pay for all these activities, clothes and the insane amount of food we go thru on a weekly basis.
Then last week an old bill pops up from almost 8 years ago when I was married. In my frustration my thought was “yeah just one more thing I was stuck dealing with after the marriage ended”.
It all sent me into a little pity party.
Oh poor Pam.
And the devil pounced “just when you thought you were getting ahead, nope you will always be struggling, you won’t ever be able to get ahead…you will never own a home, you will never be able to afford to take a nice vacation with your kids, how will you ever pay for college”
Although I’m still tired, my time in the van hasn’t changed, my son is still complaining about writing the essay, and I haven’t yet received a financial miracle. I am CHOOSING to give it all to God.
Lay it at His feet. It’s too much for me. But when I give it to God the overwhelming becomes achievable.
I may not know how all is going to work out…but God.
“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.”
Jeremiah 29:11 NKJV